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2126417 2010 年 09 月 07 日 10:50 Reading (loading. ..) Comments (0) Category: Personal Diary
Until today, I have to admit, I still live very empty. I always thought that his own love of family, love,
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but I found I was wrong, not that they are not good enough, but its a problem, but the problem is, I still can not find the answer. My mind is always a blank, do not know what to think. To hear the truth too much, too much comfort, that too much separation, too warm, but let yourself know what to do, like a lost lamb, no come to the road. In fact, I do not want to
live, I have always hated his life now, how do I become like this, numbness, apathy, feeling more and more live alone, more lonely, more and more loss of self.
how I was? Why is my dark eyes, why in my eyes, everything is empty. I would like to resolve to change themselves, but the change so hard, really so hard, I tried not to sleep one night and wanted to find a reason to cheer,
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days or so, slowly in the room quietly passing. I walked the footsteps of Lost, that is the best way back to my quiet place, and eat dinner, music, internet, sleep, I seem the only way, like a person living in this world.
that day, but also for how long, I do not know, I do not want to know, my weakness, my confusion, my desire,
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my body like a lost soul, quietly sitting in a corner of wilderness. A person, just one person, looked blankly small world, feel the abjection of the heart-breaking.
I am willing to shut ourselves up and stood alone on the floor of the dark, feeling their presence. My story is a ridiculous fairy tale, you can not read the slightest hope of happiness.
I hold myself curled up in bed, a lot of shadow flashing before my eyes, I seem to see,
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wake up, go out, still the same, watching the old man helped each other, watching the couple close hand, watching the kids happy and free, I closed my eyes, I do not want to see it all, I walk the edge of the lost, wandering cautiously.
I smile, pretend to be very strong, pretend to see the true meaning of life, lying to myself, lying to myself very well, others do not need comfort, I will give you my blessing, I make him feel the pain.
a word of the heart, is my own commitment, in a moment, I can feel the touch of a little happiness, but happiness is short, had a chance to finish, but also once again into the abyss of emptiness.
used this myself, what will no longer complain, complain,
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learned to their own, will no longer have any desire, what longing, longing looks, and I will not have, I would not say the words alone.
lonely music labels used to watch the world does not
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