ck Shen Ke Log ( 31-40 )

this year, do not know the first few times
computer and break.
often not at home even forgot to corner off the computer
finally start

also not start the afternoon to bookstores to buy a cluster of books.
just, for point of allowances.
should die a few days without the Internet.


Pig back to Guangzhou morrow night out drinking a few old school
been surprised to exclaim, witch sister ah, now see you side harder than the President see tonight who
was not granted to go back!

we have been talking just now said something
radish lofty about half of the time, there are times the political level, I want to go out on half of the airing, and teachers leave the teacher did not let
, curse So after a while my meal
classroom suddenly arose a puff of cigarette ...
when we look back to see me get lighter burned down in the textbooks
hysteria at the time a teacher.
So I was slamming the schoolroom.
teachers are still after the roar, I retorted, shut up,Lacoste Running Shoes, my grandmother a breast. Flat.
Huang and radishes by with everyone a run out to the attic
smoke.
him two laugh silly, as I like nothing the same.

radish only half finished when I think of it
I thought I had always behaved.
had done this object.
teacher I'm sorry.
was burning something else should be, should not burn books.


to stand

encountered a drunk standing behind the rock, radish handed a smoke in the past
said Road to the brothers, via thick and thin thick and thin

Twenty minutes later, drunk poke back
Huang Huang began to curse
giggle
three minutes later the curse was eventually mad.
the punch drunk bombers on the ground next to the carrot and Ding Peng
up broken malt bottles to assist

have a fly on my face.

came out, the other four people did something on my face more
had a hole.

furious.

Pig bought a extend to my face OK one,
patted my head and said, look, are you a little less violent.

... ...

apparently sat next to a tranquility start to finish to see the kids fighting
knew that I go to bars.


go to KTV, when my wife called me Chaqin
Huang everyone impatient
I went over to the call afterward to the roar, her husband, Kuai Diana, I rinse my of it!

then over the phone hung up. Mrs. Huang
angry, very solemn consequences.


Ding Peng sing the song very cute ox.
think a long time antecedent some human in the cafe late at night I miss that song.

told Huang that the home at once, come from
we are very disappointed look.
finish at.

cab carrying sack hurry to find a cafe
on-line.
daze.

no one.

write diary home ... ... Well.
probably drunk.


Alexander Adventures (2006/08/16)

8 on the first day.
When its internal organs after
bad I had to pull out a little bit, give it new ones blood

then stitched, but it blinded the

I surgery is probably the first time I put it to the erroneous organ
so he had to start from scratch once again entirely re-suture
.

this time, Alexander began to spew dark blood
I think it's dying.

had durability temper, the last time. Then I will not give up
suddenly it opened his eyes
I'm so happy.

I also late to hug the time
Alexander started to play very noisy out of Ray.
I suddenly remembered a phone call
then also play down the Alexander thing, play the damned phone

When I came back, Alexander's eyes had been blasted out
my eyes hard with it inside the bar plucked out of the Okanagan, trying to go back
my eye by Alexander, it actually began to wink

too late to surprise, only to find a good eye a, but it also left out half by lightning.
I think I can do nothing.

I had to spend money to find a professional doctor gave me a prosthesis for Alexander.
well after, the physician told me that it still can not move a finger of his left hand to heart
Alexander.
hand Well, so what
its heart was mine burned.
it had changed even the heart, and I said to the doctor.


my poor Alexander, under which you should not nonsense.
better hurry it.
you look at your rotten four days I had to stop to find somebody another.
you first betrayed me.

But I know you will not be so good the next day

you really only began to spit blood you are sordid.
I am a bit upset, but what
not help you on your abdomen had to punt his legs.

your eyes and shut up.

I soon had enough. But neither can you throw a body into someone else.
we were together for two years.
I tin not mention adore you, yet you understand the mysterious
you so much I almost hasty as my diary a diary
at least four years I have only directed at a person you say.
two years before it is Shinuo Ke 2 said later it died
I put it in a heart transplant to your body, you have my four years of secret
You If I go that amnesia how to do ah
I often remember things. You must remind me, you do not dead.

the doctor is of no use
I will give you your new newborn child

doctors it is your first few times this surgery
my poor Alexander.
good you finally up, we must thank the doctor before he left
also taught me how to neat the interior organs and help you dig your larynx so you spit dirt.

So when he was gone I can not await to pull you out of the large intestine and then into the small intestine to go.
you are still safe.
I finally relieved.

Alexander
this time has changed dramatically the
Apart from that I replace the memories in your heart where
other counterfeit I could hardly recognize the native you

I take your dress to more handsome ah, who
you look now, ugly muff
besides by sinking ponderous heart in my memories insisted, your other apparatuses are empty, a little blood I left

not even want to look at you the more.

ah
but what can you have so much of my diary, I know you do not lose benefits.


I think we should take to discuss the future of peaceable coexistence
I will try to take things to you, do not kick your stomach, do not take your organs to throw out so that you can not sleep.
you have promised, do not frighten me
if you are dead how do I do

handsome Alexander
I had to slowly let your arm back to you
before, you do not worry

I also distracted
but you must have reassurance in me


While you ######## just a broken computer Lenovo .

shred (2006/08/19)

little pieces. Log number of words is limited. Does not appear too thousand words.
some things forgotten. Some things still memorize. Bored, good mythological ah small sink.


KK
-2003.1.02

make her cry.
really do not want to take the call.
appending to perplexing or maladroit.

sorry ah. Is immature.
I can only say stop.

In truth, he is crying.
tight grip well, almost bleeding.

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KK
-2003.2.17

eat steroids can surmount the cold, sad what to eat?
Well, in the heart posted a Band-Aid.
right, one may heal slowly, posted two good.


in the mirror when surprised.
face more pale than usual, swollen eyes, well great, but also congestion.
really ugly. This is me?
indeed can not be ugly again after a.
clean to start my new life.
grace.
first for pajamas.
this white robe make me look more like a ghost.

I have not grown up on the old.
so I judged to retouch my adolescence.
from now on.


My name is Shen Ke.
16 years old.
I like black.
stay very long fingernails.
I was a likely baby.
my addiction adult men than some bigger.
I have deep black eye.
I consider it to be happy is not so effortless.
I rejected in love.
I ... ...


I slept the sleep of a not too long.
that the use of alcohol and sleeping pills, I woke up.
I must acknowledge I have a place still hurts.
but that is normal.
I give myself one day. Up on the day.
some better together.


I half past three when the home began to write diaries.
incited but also a bit mournful plan my current life.
If tomorrow is atmospheric even more perfect.
I am to cut my hair cut those split ends.
not how do I line, they will fall, and littered with a long fork.
then put the hook to cut.
is not to stay.
full cut.
I left them a long time, but immediately irritated them.
such as adjoin lenses every time I take the time because of the long nails pull out almost to the eyes.
right, maybe I should buy some silver eye shadow.
I see those black surrounds for a long time is not so beautiful.
cover off better.
If mood heal faster, I should reward yourself about.
mirror kiss or something.

to black and then a call, tell him I have been nice.
me crazy when I am just afraid he would be crazy also.
he already old, and then scare me every time is, the more old.

like final night, as I crouched above the turn of 1 point late at night crying, to call him to acquaint him I'm working to the rill jump.
black scared voice quiver and you still start stuttering.
that poor old guy.
him how to do without me.
me how to do without him.
I had left such a black.
I most most best friend black.
I really wanted to hold him a good bit nauseating.


I should learn to run the.
you know, as a future big star, do not work hard point is insufficient.
must depend on running to a large lung capacity.
I love music more than ah.
Music will love me.

me good.
fool just does not like me.
but before I just very lucky happens like a fool's cheat.
You see, I see myself many more frosty torture.
Now I better up.
fool the world,Lacoste Casual Shoes, at the end of the day, not much.
no longer wants to run into a fool, the earth is mine.

In fact, the maximum lovelorn man is the right temper.
can be stuck on me.
injure that I have for the lovelorn fool to sign a contract.
forget.
generosity ... ...
jot it. After all, stupid is not his fault.
step mother.


This is my first day of puberty yet.
I awaken.
I forget to forget that.
so decided.
future star at the end of the day began to grow up.
fuel oil! ! !

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KK. and the North Bay's notes logged
-2004.4.26

luncheon time Liu said the father and mama and aunt contradictory.
mother will come back to see me a few days.
I gave Liu aunt helpless laughter. Can I say?

slowly coming to an end of the tutorial, early return.
home suddenly crowded together in the afternoon she likes to call home some of her classmates to play.
a long time, not slowly, would like her.
now that noisy.
people is like that. Very strange.


have to stop eating three or four days a new rehabilitation pill.
people get to sleep in addition to, not a little on the role of drug management. Altogether do not eat.
have that damn black gram, I eat a lot and edema.

stop injection volume of 300 ml, the body is still very excited very needy.


night to try smoking, the body can not stop shivering. Or no way.
these two days forgot to needle disinfection, kick down a bit could not stop the blood.
see reports I heard someone injected into the vein sclerosis. A little frightened.

stagnation has come. Dr. Tang was going to re-acquired prescription, over an intravenous drop.
or not ambitious to play left-handed. Right arm had been full of pinholes.
Dr. Tang said, a little mild anorexia, the body's immune system has a long a lot worse.
but did not say that topic. I obliged him.


panda fribring ... to an end a car accident, linger away of.
things change.
quite brisk girl. Only seventeen. Accident that daytime to ascertain her father and mother panda. Cry Ganchangcunduan.
Panda half day to reflect, whatever. She said like a dream.

this time she very sorrowful, I do not know how to comfort, so she can only say voicelessly.
Panda cried on the idol QQ you know,
to still feel like a dream, meditative that the school can see her, thinking to buy a new DVD also waiting for her to come to my house to see.

ah good, all right, all right ...

feel so useless. People are not even a consolation ... ...

life, living very mighty,New Lacoste Shoes High Top, but the moment of the accident to make life becomes particularly small vulnerable.
no one way to resist.

North Bay ... you is not it?

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KK. and the North Bay's notes recorded
-2004.4.27

flustered at the time .
night really hurt. This is the fourth time, is her first time, the second is the misty abortions,
third is that you, the fourth turn fish.

small automobile occurrence, four sewing needle. Her fear of being scolded grandmother to my house when bedraggled.
with her asleep, suddenly afraid to wake. Panda's friends thought that, life is good ...

crisp fish did not do better.


daybreak to discern Lily Chou-Chou's MV.
very quiet, desolate singing involves the auditory nerve, two hours non-stop drinking, stop smoking.

time to consume so I do not feel bad, like you, they become close to me, let me be happy.
dear, I do this every day boring and fun.

always will be you and me talking all the time to go God. But I never let your center left you a second. Really.

you sleep,
I often wear pajamas in the empty room came wading elapse, looks very engaged see. Nothing can be done.

I will have the computer open, music will not stop. Most of the day sitting in front of the computer or a fancy film.
repeated over and over again to see the Suzhou River, and Chibi Maruko.
little bit after a meantime it will go to your head. Point to open, then near. Point to open, then close. Nothing will be said. Seems to be a habit.

Suzhou River, she can not always be as brave. Chibi Maruko can not do is always happy, as the magnification.

whether some day, I did, would you love me more.


heart will suddenly explicit at once.
our changes, I have seen.
I will slowly a little bit of analysis of these, you can always array a number of fewer than half was interrupted along the sudden delight or grief.

you love me. You do not love me.
all these become a acute ingredient controlling my feelings.

tears to fall, I looked in front of you cold and indifferent, that is thin fragile shell mollusk.

forget when to begin the habit, when the heartache will be posted in the chest at the Band-Aid.
you laugh each time I am silly.

or there is always an fantasy. In the navel of the night that someone knocked on the door.
dawn, when the curtains, the sun came without warning, a sudden flash in the face of heavy jumping,Lacoste Canvas Shoes,
that second little molecules of dust can hear the air tearing sound.
I put the curtains, trying to get to are terrified to open their eyes closed. A little dizzy.

I told all the questions asked about alone people, study to enjoy the loneliness. So I am very merry.
but I know this moment is alarm. I merely wish to say to you. Only you, I love you, you gave me a deep deep unspeakable solitude.

I can not, do not want to withstand it.
Because you give me that love is portion of ...


But North Bay, you will order me lonely?

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KK
-2004.10.11

has been two days.
also in trance with a stubborn dream of silly fun.
everything seems to be no change, it seems that you will appear in the next second, said his wife I come ...
I was indulging in a quiet dream.

I meditation you just go to nap, one hour, two hours afterward, in short, you ambition get up, you not left.
I sat in front of a computer fantasy that he was just waiting as you to wake.
just waiting for you to wake ...

You must be exhausted, this time to sleep so long. So I'll simulate you woke up vexed, so I must tell you a little sad.
then, and as usual, then you will say Well, well, Shao good `` not allowed.

I kept to myself Do not worry, wait.
on the next second you wake.

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KK
-2005.12.26

woods at 2004-12-2110 : 18:00

got me shopping to be political affairs, women really difficulty. free to do an afternoon of labor, escalator everything not to have come back nearly straight up,
to see a black clothes Jumpsuit skirt, she thought, she must wear this look good.
are trying to buy down the urge to clothes the set to give her, shook her head, how could that be? I do not know her address, she can not tell me!
Two days without seeing her on the line, and, like her
yesterday, she finally came, did a stupid thing ran and She said HI, want to point and she relaxed talk, but was perfunctory
asked her birthday is October 22, upset, plus her earlier QQ like bravery, but also to say happy birthday to her .
the first time and speak to her, very happy, I do not know she is not a stranger are so chilly, want to tell her that I did not hateful!
nameless I'm just a children, in her eyes I What Who the perdition do count.
However, this is ample. or happy. as a special Christmas award received, a night at her brain off in the QQ. happy,Lacoste Prep CB Shoes, Oh, there are numerous
inquire the question, why is it called CK, why not love his discourse, she do every day .. the Internet are a lot of
I childish to see the chat history like a child yesterday, hey wish she did not think I is a boring human.

and massive Wu Zhangjie them at night to rehearse, not sleep, I always imagined of looking for a pearly short-sleeved, depressed.
sleep, sleep.

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began to placard a chap.
join my QQ, almost never speak to me.
the beloved of the blog's journal written in 2 months they are entire approximately me.
occasionally seen, and began a habit
always in a bad mood when he went to see the diary,
a little bit of yourself to chance happy.

I was happy.
at least people like me.

Maybe he and I never have to talk, no one has talked to who.
But this gentle stranger, but I trance up in an instant.

This is a sensibility of what it
loss, heartiness, bulging vanity, mild shortness of respiration.

Shen Ke, you good thing.
do not have so little self-confidence.
I told you you're a good girl, do not deem what the opposite ###### discrimination slander.
you see you are not in the heart thing?





Grimm's Fairy Tales (2006/08/29)

insisted lend as evildoer

wits worth in the hot sun euthanasia


think that ah
house when we are slumberous
I still do advocate air chimes
help you help me to be a rocking preside with the support cats
right?
then slaughtered it.

joke your friends ~


muffle is seen as the heart has Ayutthaya
smile is seen as the tears are seen as curious claws
bleeding is seen as the script
toxic bait
hidden speck to be seen as criminal

even love the way
was also denied


I cast aside the noble sweetheart ah you
you do not love this mask it is cold, no life

sad pale


make you feel fear when I humbly submit to you getting ripped it in front of you, however, sent
so contemptuously jeered


look at these still knocking heart it is my
dolphin for you to swallow it down
just feel the warmth of that moment blurred
contented erase his jaws with the blood of
stupid enough to think they and the light closer.




assuming no ###### sleeping in the forest when the corpses it said, pointing
dwarf ah
This
look like a clown

Please evildoer
you make it like they say it is not the princess is so



so it looks like a beauteous clown
that OK

9.10 (2006/09/10)

9.6

I know you do not like me individuality.

probably from the advisable, the often heard you say,
have children on the child's lively, do not always see the adults also face expressionless.

But they say that my character like you.
I mean just love trying to flaunt the side like it.


yesterday was my first day at work.
I did not tell you.
but I think you know, it should be very happy.
I always do not go out in the home nest,
continuous phase of time every day or go on to play late into the night, and drunk to go home.
every time you will call me to ask Aunt location.
you worry about me, I all knew.


home this morn to a lot of people.

aunt in the living room and talk.
her to gush tea for them,
I went to the living room leaning against the bedroom door watching them.
one of the accessory baggage of middle-aged man smiled at me very rigid the next, said Ms. Shen, right?

aunt tea over time like a little dread,
mumbled Keke you go into the room, this all right.
I do not frown go.
started seeing them quest into your learn. They spent ten minutes

pulls out a lot of portfolios.
have people standing on the settle scored from the altitude of a bookcase black box.
I told him not to move, it is your saxophone.
wording of the man pointing at me peculiar, or open the carton and looked at it put it back.

one of them have stayed in my bedroom will.
moved my computer, the C inventory to the point to go.
I politely said, standing next to beautiful things in my D drive, the uncle what you're looking for? Shantou Shantou
he said nothing. Look.

almost half an hour.
bed sets, Roof, Court room, living room sofa and even the end they all turned over and over.


I suddenly miss you.
that time.

I know who they are.


I would like habits.
they can not find you. So I can find.
time in Changsha, as well.
just today I fulfilled that there are such a big eater in Shaoyang.

a little nervous, but they ease up.
Since they came to my house trying to find someone, then it must be because you can not move it like this.
they did not certify. Do anything.

such a thought,Lacoste Arixia FD Shoes, I stood in the alive room of a loss beneath the aunt smiled gently.


you see. My aunt than heroic.



9.10

I endured did not call you.
Today is my fifth day at work.
the before month to learn, I have planned.
keyboard I am very versed, but the drugs were not familiar with.
slowly.

suddenly felt one day flies.

I have something you want to say to you.
said the antique course better.

me very happy this time.
happened some things tied together.
very disappointed.
want to die.

happens all around them began to cruel.

want to change distinct way of life.
I completely feeble for those tired of people and things.

perhaps long overdue.
me mad also want to make their run.
no longer dependent on anything.
That makes me more naturalistic and vulnerable.
you sometimes say I do not know exactly what they thought, so then I will tell you slowly.
my thoughts.


I thought this month would be to accustom to my new context.
these days namely just the starting, occasionally go to work when a small God.
like some unhappy things, and then fall asleep.
but at least not as bad to feel at family crying like a.
work is a good thing.
you think I can do it. Right.


and aunt at home when a quarrel.
because she said a few words.
about you.

you know, you are the best.
tell you a little secret

seven or eight times.
you once took me to cut my hair.
'll wash the hair of her sister is very beautiful.
been and you laugh.
from start to finish, I did not say a word.

washing you take me back home,
I suddenly ran into his apartment to latch up, wow bang on the inside tearful.

mother had been standing appearance the door, his head was I scared mist.
you back is inexplicable. Mother was also asked for a long time.
that time, my days are not talking to you.

I do not know when I understand.
that is jealous.
like to see you and then embrace my mother, I will be very frightened to escape away.

I'm afraid you leave.
also afraid of her mother to depart.

9 / 16 (2006/09/16)

the first week of work.
1st vacation day.

everything went smoothly.

of our initial observations ...

drug sales.
my department.
back of the auditorium in the corporation office, and I have a absolute 7.
take buyer calls the cardinal way, newspaper reported that plans hardly evermething.
routinely work fairly accessible. In particular, the pharmaceutical recent off-season.
busy but very mortal. T

cat sister. Sales team governor, 27 annuals old.
single.
wearing black-rimmed cups, suit favorite.
will be argued before work and plush sister decided to buy a new thong styles.
shopping and go home, tell me a word.
too beautiful woman unwanted. But worth it.

Ama aunt. 46.
will close long-term, non-stop all day in the company to see her nectar honey.
neurotic character.
Sales spine. We do not understand all there is to find her.
her handsome son. Purchased in the downstairs ministry.

buns. 29.
I do not know why we call her buns.
Although a northerner, but the body is very petite, round.
very lukewarm, no stuff how.
often purchase a lot of time at work and give you snacks.

Ouyang Yani. 22.
ponytail. Character more calm way.
reported when the project will suddenly appear behind you, then scare you half to death.


Xie Wen. 24.
... ... very scary woman.
sales of flowers ... ... ... ...
like the same metamorphosis peeping me.
- - | |


hairy. 26.
will Shoubashoujiao I am familiar with these drugs.
after work, often called the cat on the T and I went for a small potato flour and octopus balls.
and I have a distant relationship among the sister.
married double. First married in Taiwan.
Now the husband of her good.

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few sales.
often run out of commerce.
then take the plan to sell a single Department of prescription, go to storage distribution.

even boats. 24.
very black humor of a man.
come looking for the first time when a single plush fur disburse plan introduced us.
intentionally ferocious ground and say hi.
then plush pummel to death.
love to run us right at the Ministry of play, that joke.


Nguyen Bin. 27.
very slight. Looks like the only 20-something look.
often find cat T sister newspaper timetable.
meticulous.
very serious.
but joking and even get the two ships were deserted throughout the department.


uncle. 32.
buns husband.
we call him uncle.
reportedly because beer abdomen. I do not know what's uncle and the relationship between beer belly.
but was compelled to cconsist in ... with his uncle.
uncle is a very lovely uncle.


Wuxi Zhi. 23.
easy-going.
love spoof.
and uncle fraternizing.
speak after they add that right brother?
criterion professional rogue.
really do not see is one of the best salesman in the sales rendition.

several did not know the name.


slowly.

all people are good.
These are the boring new staff Shen Ke little drowse in the afternoon after the children written on small pieces of periodical on the observations.