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[REVIEW] I lay for three days at home. The fourth day, I heard that they have to go to bars to play sunspots, I immediately called the police secretly. Sunspot them are hidden in cargo, a grasp of a standard. Since then, I did not go to the store, asked my father to sell her grandmother's house. I started hiding.
irresponsible parents, making the capacity of Xiaoling in high school to go astray. She was a heavy price in exchange for the freedom of new life. But the shadows of the past has haunted her all the time, until one day a young man's ridiculous to be a heavy price to end the nightmare of the past re-emerged, how can she get out? (Text characters are not his real name)
reporter impression: Let Xiaoling, fair complexion, eyes black and shiny, long hair, temperament, pure, delicate appearance, looking much like the college students. This delicate face, now full of gloom.
1 nightmare reproduce
half past nine, the guests dispersed, the restaurant was closing. I lie on the table, too tired to waist are not straight up. The flagship restaurant business is really good, I see a man six table, each table have turned Taiwan. Loewe came over, patted my shoulder Henai Xi said, too tired now, go back and I'll give you squeezed. I looked at him, Hanhan tall, covered with the smoke flavor, the same tired expression, a bit distressed. I smiled and said, okay, we go back.
Loewe with other people and I say goodbye, we walked hand in hand, I can feel behind those laughing eyes. Loewe good since I began to, all of us are not optimistic that a flower stuck in cow dung, and, I had the service in the housekeeping department, and later was transferred to the lobby, I know that was the foreman s doing. He pursued me, but I refused.
In their view, I am beautiful, which should be rich guests fancy, then home to the keeping and feeding them, and not to fall in love with an ordinary chef. I love to Loewe's simple and honest, for my obedience, as well as that cute look silly.
the way home, we stopped by a man. I see this person, he was startled, I quickly went home to Loewe, and I said, met acquaintance.
acquaintance is Ermao, this life where I absolutely do not want to see one. We have not seen about three years. At the moment, he stopped my way. Looked at him askew glib, unsteady stance, I rise in my throat for a while retching, while nausea.
he smokes, but waves of the hand holding a cigarette lighter from time to time jitter, only half lit cigarette. I dare not speak, for fear it will spit out a mouth.
Ermao able to get a cigarette first, before a low voice said to me, Reiko, you go to check it. I heard is that the disease sunspots, all attack.
I froze for a long time, do not know what he was saying.
Ermao said Pu Cunxin know it? Quite the name of the actor, he is the spokesman for the disease. You to go under the bar. I can say is that the.
I called, roll, crazy.
side of his mouth I ran behind him came the Ermao cry, Reiko, I beg you, go check the bar ... ...
my tears rolled down at full blast. I know the actor, I know what disease is AIDS. I think I often cold, fever, inflammation of the lymphatic always, always doing things boring, do not, I really got the disease? !
will not will not. Not possible. I would not be so bad.
2 problem girl
three days, the grandmother died. In this world, I can only harbor open heating collapsed. Home, Mom and Dad fight all the time. They quarreled avid, I use cotton ear plug will not work.
you when the tube when the mother of her? ...
enough! They do not love me, I do not need them! I packed my clothes and returned to the grandmother's home. They later came to see me, into my hand on a money to hurry away.
in the exam, scores declined. The teacher said, my kids scrap it. I cried.
was assigned to the third-rate school. I would like to read, but, no one to accompany me. Students are playing games, clubbing,
黄煌教授在江苏电视台“万家灯火”讲座视频 - Qzone日志, love, how the teacher did not control. I have a lot of boys
pursuit. They call me the school beauty. I know I'm beautiful, but I do not want to reason a person. What is love? Is not love about finished to get married? Then just like my father and mother, as a lifetime fight? I do not want.
loner in my campus. However, others did not miss me. Results will play a girl stuck in my toilet, hit me, cut my hair, saying it was He is my. One day I
straw, with a pair of scissors to catch up with them desperately. On campus in front of me and their small Pixiang are gang fights,
coach purses, Ermao they appeared, he broke up those female bully, said to them, Reiko later told me!
Ermao is the man of our school, his family was good. He has been after me, I did not care for him. Now he helped me, and I still very cold to him. Ermao to please my favor, he asked who bullied me, and I named one, and he did really put every girl and teach again. Look at the people who bullied me pale, almost to his knees for mercy, I have a nameless happy. Ermao particularly attentive to me, then I go to school every day house, I see what trinkets, and he bought me apart from anything else.
I finally found a warm feeling being love. Ermao me out to play again,
coach shoes, I will go along.
play games, pub, smoking, and even eat **,***, I quickly degenerate. But I still do not agree with Ermao about friends. I patted the shoulder with his friendships, Ermao have never forced me.
3 heavy price
Middle School graduation exam, I did not pass, did not get a diploma. But I do not care. Ermao money I opened a clothing store, Ermao more and more friends, sunspots became their boss. I followed them out several times, always clubbing playing games, or assault, I am both jumpy and irritable. I told Ermao said, I do not want to go out later. But every day can go to my sunspot clothing to sit, staring at me straight, like a tiger.
I said I have a boyfriend of sunspots is Ermao. But sunspots just stare, Ermao ass did not dare put even with the kind of sad desperate eyes looking at me. In fact, I have heard early on sunspots, his girlfriend more, he is also old and out of those places of entertainment, I do not understand what he have to pursue me.
I am stubborn temper, the more sunspots, so the more I ignore them. He looks just like a bully, speak loudly atmosphere, just like my dad like, I hate this man.
19-year-old birthday,
coach women shoes, my grandmother home nest hiding. I do not want to see who just want a good quiet one. Phone has been ringing, sunspots, Ermao They kept the name of phone, text messaging, find me out, I did not care. Middle of the night two more, they actually knocking on my door and beat have mountain ring, fear of affecting the neighbors, I had opened the door.
opened the door to an alcohol spray, and they all drank a lot. Bushitaiju sunspot called me, said a group of buddies Pakistan Pakistan Centre for a liver to other night, give me birthday, I actually do not appreciate. I Huileyiju, I did not want you to wait, again, what you are not my people, who am I to go out.
regret that most of my life to say a word.
H sunspot the others out, including Ermao. I see stars play two of his ears, pulled my head against the wall, and said,
怀孕期间可以让孩子变漂亮的办法 - Qzone日志, I am so like you, pull you become my woman, see what you say. Call you stubborn,
coach sunglasses outlet!
toss me in the sunspots that night, I know, my youth, gone a long detour.
I lay for three days at home. The fourth day, I heard that they have to go to bars to play sunspots, I immediately called the police secretly. Sunspot them are hidden in cargo, a grasp of a standard. Since then, I did not go to the store, asked my father to sell her grandmother's house. I started hiding. They do not look for sunspots
me later. Maybe I'm tired of sunspots is, while Ermao, is no longer people called in front of me instead.
they finally disappeared from my life was.
4 start
I started looking for work. Just when I was looking for a positive work to make money with their own hands.
but no diploma, no experience,
夜 - Qzone日志, I only have a beautiful face, pretty good tongue, so I do sell cosmetics, make wine to sell, do salesmen, spare time, I read the TV. I remember when my grandmother at the time when I was a much outstanding students ah. I try to learn to be independent, learn to adapt to normal society, learn to lead a normal life. But there is a, if I work environment where there are men began to pursue me, I immediately quit my job at the same time, from rental to move out, phones are replaced. Sunspot ruined me, I can not touch the man, even in the elevator half a meter in diameter, as long as there are men around,
coach sunglasses, I have a feeling of dizziness and vomiting.
side of the school, while doing things, this year, I went to apply for this flagship restaurant waiter. When I went to the restaurant had been scheduled welcome Miss, less money, but also on face eat, I do not want. VIP was placed in the Department is only responsible for a room. Between the front and the kitchen is a line, there will be chef weekly classes and regular class service, cooks and waiters and sales often need to communicate the details of dishes, that is the case, I and Loewe did they cooked up.
Loewe good to me, the restaurant quickly became a news.
me this but did not exclude Luo Wei. Perhaps because he was not as other men, I am eager to start the pursuit of his simple and honest shy,
coach sneakers, only Dafan, when I play some more meat in the bowl; or, in a large group of colleagues, midnight snack , I said casually to drink, he would run very far away to buy me; Or just saying I like to watch DVD, he actually bought me a dozens of breath-chip Japanese TV drama ... ...
He asked me out to play, said to be a lot of friends, to discover that this simple and honest guy with a point of narrow-minded, actually the only two of us. I'm not angry, but added a little look. And this honest man, neatly done nothing, even under the lake to go boating, he only brought the hold my hand getting off, and then did not dare move.
I accepted him. Indeed, every day I take him back to my rental. Every day he would give me a massage aching muscles, it will hug me, kiss me, but I refused other intimacy. He was disappointed, but never forced.
I know, I have not came out from that nightmare.
5
Ermao boyfriend to tell me to leave a message, nothing less than a sunny day in the thunder. I do not think I'd be back. Sunspots is deserved, what about me?
I have been shaking, not knowing what to do. Home, Loewe very strange my reaction. I need comfort. I hugged him and cried. Told him everything. Loewe have not said anything, and he held me tightly, kissed me also take the initiative, saying that even if I am ill, he would accompany me all my life.
That night, we toss and turn, stayed up all night.
Loewe accompanied me to check, my hands shake, he is also shaking. At the hospital door, he said he'd buy a pack of cigarettes, and then be gone. I can stop him, to do their own inspections themselves to blood, think of the results, my heart beat is about to pop out from the mouth. After a few days but the doctor did not have the results.
I walked from the restaurant. There is no need to go. I hid in my rental house, waiting for that final blow.
Loewe I sent a text message, asking me for forgiveness. He said, I went to check a lot of books, I have those symptoms with my own control, more than the more afraid.
eat, sleep well, I'm getting thin. If it is really sick, and how can I do?
I know I was wrong. The degenerate and decadent youth, I should not be so profligate. However, all this is I want it? I have all the fault of a person to back it? Wrong committed by a young man, you need to take life?
Who? Who will pay for my tragic youth?